Thursday, March 10, 2011

Consumed? Is that bad?

I hate knowing that life is so consuming, your thoughts, your activies.. it's like everyday I have somewhere to be, something to do & of course something to think about. My thoughts lately have been consumed with a precious little baby... one that my heart longs for. I know there has got to be other people out there that feel the same way that I do. I wasn't going to blog about any of my feelings when it came to my health problems & not being able to have a baby but if it helps one person than maybe I should, right?

I was diagnosed with endometriosis and PCOS (polycystic ovary syndrome). The doctor states that if we are even able to have children that it would be a long and hard process, try taking that in when you are 17-18 years old & not even married yet. Yep that's what happen to me all alone in the doctors office & was told, than a little while later I get married to a wonderful husband and that was always in the back of my mind but because we didn't want children right away it wasn't to bad but it has now been a horrible trial that I have had to go through. I want children and those of you out there should be truly thankful for the ones you have cause not everyone is so lucky. I know the lord can perform miracles and like my last blog stated he performs them daily and I am trying to wait patience on mine. I am thankful for what I have gone through don't get me wrong I believe that is what makes me so strong and my faith will grow stronger to. Someone once told me that the Lord knows all about it and that's so true I wouldn't want anyone else knowing all about it but him cause I trust him and I know he loves me as one of his own children and he won't do me wrong.

Until next time.. Mrs. Hill


  1. sweetie I wish I could give you a hug right now!

    The Lord knows the desires of your heart. 7 years ago in January, my Dr told me that Lee and I would probably not have children, and that if I ever COULD concieve, my body would probably reject it. 7 years and 3 pregnancies later, we have 2 sweet (although mischievious!) boys. I've been there, and it hurts. But God is good, and prayer you girl.