Revival CRAZY!!

Well revival is here! I will be supper busy from here on out not that I haven’t been busy before now trying to buy everything and get my house ready. Why does revival have to be so stinking stressful? I think you have revival so that peoples’ minds can get freed from all the stress they put up with before revival even starts… haha… We are having Bro. Jimmy & Bro. Arthur this year. I am not doing the preachers this year because I wanted to take it easy yet I have talked myself into 2 nights of company at my house and 2 nights of company at Beth’s house… so busy busy busy… I was able to take off from work this week so I am so excited about getting to be at church every service this year. That will be great. I am hoping the lord won’t leave me out while he blesses everyone…

So Beth only has 41 days left until Arie should be here… which she will probably be late just like her mommy and daddy are always… lol sorry Bethie.. but you know it’s true.. Anyways I can’t wait to see her and hold her and love her oh yeah and spoil her!!! I will be the best aunt ever!!!!

IT'S NOT FAIR!

SORRY BUT THIS IS ALL I CAN SAY TODAY!!!

IT'S NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:'( NOT FAIR AT ALL.... :'(

HELP!

I am sitting here today just heart-broken, I hate having to go through this whole baby thing. I think almost every day I ask myself (rather I guess I ask the lord) why I have to go through this. Will this trial really make me stronger? Will this trial really help me to be a better person? Will this trial really have me help someone in the same position that I am in? Well the answer in the end is always the same no matter what time or day it is... and that answer is “I hope so” I hope I am able to be a stronger and better person out of this trial and if I am going through this trial of not becoming a mother right away just to help someone else out then that’s fine. Lord I’d be willing to do that because 1^st of all I know I have places to move up in being a stronger and better person and I love being able to help anyone and everyone that I can. As the minute that we decided to try for a family turned into an hour, then a day, then a week & now months & months have gone by I have realized a lot about myself. However I have realized a lot about life as well I have always known that when I did become a mother I would love my child no matter what but now not being able to have a child right away I think I will probably love my child even more then I thought I could, like my love for my child is already so strong and I don’t even have one. It gets harder and harder with each person you know becoming parents, I pray several times just asking for wisdom, asking for patience (which have ran thin) maybe that’s what got me in this trial to begin with the lord knew I might need to get better with my patience. The lord may not want us to be parents and I am trying to talk myself into if that’s his plan then I will just try and be happy with that plan as he knows best anyways. I have my good and bad days as every does in their lives, fireworks kept my mind busy although I would have to slide my sunglasses over my eyes once my mind settled down and the thoughts had time to surface. I am hoping revival will also keep my mind busy and I won’t have to worry about baby fever once again. It’s always hard around revival time because you see all the people and their kids coming from everywhere. I have learned to be able to control my emotions as long as my mind is busy but once it ever settles down and I do get to thinking about it it’s not as easy. Like someone told me the other day when you want something so bad it’s hard not to think about it all the time and that’s exactly how I feel. It’s like it takes over my life sometimes, I want to plan my own baby shower instead of a friends, I want to hold my own baby instead of a friends, I want to buy my own baby clothes instead of my friends baby. Please someone help me, I am begging for help. I feel like I can’t even pray for myself anymore… as I sit here in tears just thinking lord please if you’re not going hear me just maybe you will hear someone’s prayer. I don’t know what else to do it’s like my mind can only take so much and it’s at a breaking point. I just never thought once being a young kid that I would have problems having a family and it seems like now that I want a family it is the hardest thing. I know I know for those of y’all that will read this and say it’ll happen when the time is right. I know that I’ve heard that over and over and yes that’s great thanks for encouraging me but I know that already, I just need help on waiting until the “right time” gets here. It’s so much harder done than said. Just please anyone out there if and when you think about me please pray, I know I have to wait until the time is right until the lord is ready to give me a family and I am fine with that but that’s the hard part is it’s hard to just wait and wait… I feel like I am at the end and need a boost from something to help me wait until my little miracle gets here!

Selling Fireworks Year 1 LOL

This is Andrew.. hmm well he was suppose to be directing traffic.. lol He wasn't to happy with Uncle Daniel at this time cause he was having to hold a stupid arrow sign LOL

LOL man this is Andrew again I wish so bad you were there & could have seen him moving his hips with the arrow.. FUNNY!!!

Yeah well this was our tent.. at Paint Rock- we  were selling fireworks had about 8 customers in the building & I am outside & the wind takes our tent.. I had to run to catch it from hitting cars! It was the 2nd time this tent broke on us.. lol

STUPID Snake fireworks.. lol don't ever buy these.. hahaha

A sled.. that is suppose to go forward.. yeah well it went reverse on us ALMOST causing a BIG BANG lol

Beth & Arie hard at work- lol

Kiki hard at work.. I was holding this huge finger flag on the side of 72 waving at ppl lol

Beth & Arie- caught in the act.. lol just kidding.. we were just trying to go to Disney World.. Bro Chris!

It was sooooooooo HOTTTTT in the building so we tried to rig this up.. lol

Me sitting around.. waiting on customers

still waiting on customers..lol

Oh yeah... STILL WAITING ON CUSTOMERS

& my new "holy" skirt.. thanks to Beth & bottle rockets!

Bro Chris was doing the "sell firework dance" lol

So I got ready... toooo

Call on all Gods with Beth & Arie.. lol HAHAHAHAHAHA

We were bored.. so we had to do something to keep us from crying!!!

This is me again with the huge firework flag.. lol

All in all we had a BLAST selling fireworks for our first year.. we made alot of memories.. and have alot of funny stories!! Paint Rock well.. it was real.. and it was fun but ... well might as well leave it at that... Good luck Mayor Counts getting someone to run against you.. maybe could get the old guy on the golf cart... LOL